It's weird how many relationships and friendships i have been through in the past year. Been in and out of so many... mainly because people are different and react or think in different state of minds. Not that its bad that all these have come and gone... just weird. Now that I am growing up I see that. I see that just because you aren't best friends with everyone you know... doesn't mean it wasn't worth it in the end. I think all the drama this year has started because it was always hard for me to let go of a friend. I have come to realize that its okay for a close friend to become an aquaintance, or even someone that you talk to once a month. But I think what amazes me the most is that through all of these friendships... i have a few people that have been with me for YEARS... Kyle of course, the markwells since i was 3! and Ashley... who is going to be my best friend forever... I know this because we have both been through some hard times with different friends and some good times with other clicks... but we have always come back to each other. I love you girl! And then there is cristin :) Cristin and I have been friends for about 4 years now and i have never had a dull moment with her. We never really hung out a ton before this year... but we always laughed and had the same point of veiw or aspect of life... were just alike and now we are getting a lot closer... and i am so happy because i know its going to be an (ashley villa relationship) ... yes i have named a relationship after you ash...because you are the first friend that has lasted through so much drama and love! :) so yes i am growing up and i am happy with my relationships and i am happy that i am starting to really understand life :)

WELCOME BACK :) If you are reading this... that means you hopefully want lj back in your life! hahaha.. anyway... just a lil update... Well i have a new job since the last time i posted... i think... i work at drd, lcc and like it... hopefully my girlie sam will be working with me! :0) Yay... umm kyle and i have been together for almost 4 years and couldn't be happier! Ummm i am moving out soon and may be getting my own puppie... french bulldog... i know i know kyle don't get my hopes up... but I <3 patch! :) anyway... As far as work goes... we maybe expanding soon which means a possible manager possision! yay! :) anyway, im gonna go... Yay add me if you wannnnt! :)

So its been a while since i last posted about a year actually... kyle and i have been together for almost 3 1/2 years... YAY... umm i work at gelsosomo's for about 10 months now... ew.. i am done wiht school but am scared shitless of the career i have chosen... life gets really shitty now and then... but i have kyle and my friends... which by the way ... i am still close with tiff... got close with ash again which is amazing bc i love her.. and got back in touch with the first best friend i ever had EVER... Heather markwell.... i can't even explain how amazing it is... hahaha im stupid i know but this is like moving away from a family member and 3 years later getting so see them. Heather alwasy was a sister to me and we have only been in one fight all our lives and that was when we were 5... and it lasted about 10 min... hahahaha anyway, i have also become extremely close to my littel sister jackie... which is basically a first in forever. Since we were little. We always faught a lot...and she was the baby so she got away with murder but we have become so close and im so freakin happy... I love the relationships in my life right now and thats the only thing keeping me sane. Uhmmmm i dunno I love kyle... hehe... i am in bloomingotn right now and couldnt be happier! :) i love him a lot... anyway, im just wasting time and now i have to get in the shower so i guess... everyone needs to keep in touch with me so i don't loose my mind!

So yesterday at work some woman passed out and stopped breathing.. luckily she had a pace maker so she made it through... it was so crazy stuff... i dunno i dont feel like typing it all out... if you want the whole story ask me...

Also... I found out recently that my bosses dont give a crap about me... I just feel really hurt when i do alot for the grill... as much as i can do... i run my butt off but its not good enough for them... i put in my first app yesterday, i plan on putting more out... i just need the time... but as usually im covering for the grill so things run smooth for them... this week... six days two doubles... whatever... im sad bc i love all my girls there :(

so i am going to start posting again bc i have learned to hate myspace... hahahaha its turned into a religion.... sooooo whats been up... well here we go

1. Kyle and i have been together now for 2 1/2 years.. yay and we are still strong... :)

im just gonna do bullets its easier

* i kinda lost touch with some people which sucks but i have become really close with tiffany efantis... sorry if i murdered that... and erica scneznic.. HAHAHA I KNOW I KILLED THAT! I miss nick williams TONS and i miss christine l. we will be one again! LOL

* I got a job at the Premier Grill and have worked there for a while... love my bosses and the girls i work with ... duhhh i work with my sister melissa! lol anyway, winter is tough for waitresses but i will make it through:)

UUUUUUmmmmm saving up to go to school... got an internship offered to me but couldn't take it bc i would have to move my entire life to virginia which is too far away from family and friends... plus... i dont want to move to virginia for good... BUT i would be closer to cameron...

anyway, thats all for now i cant think of anything...

i have found that there are a lot of fake people out there.... its kinda tough to not get mad at people in general... hmmmm i also dont like hypocrites... how could ... i dunno nevermind im not getting back in this drama...

So I'm at melissas right now... doing nothing so why not post... well i work 6-8 days a week... 8 being last week when i worked two doubles... ive been tired... and lonely... luckily kyle came to see me this past weekend and i will see him next... so that im excited about... besided that life is pretty sad without him... i miss agitha... aka ashley bc we both work a lot but... i work with melissa! I LOVE IT... lol were so funny together... anyway, nothing really to say... i love kyle ... miss ashley ... and am with melissa... i need food... maybe arbys...

yeah im never on this but im beginning to hate myspace bc people post really horrid chain letters on them... i got really mad at one and said i was quiting... ill prolly stay on it for my cousins, dustin, and of course the love of my life kyle... but im really begining to hate it... stupid chain letters... anyway, im in bloomington... with the love of my life and its been a blast so far... except the nastiness of the appartment after the people moved out... apparently they liked to throw crap like monkeys or something... LOL Not really but it was bad... anyway, soo nervous about not being by my lover again... but i know we'll do perfect...

got a new job... Premier Grill on Calumet across from mcdonalds... its fun... nice people... i love it... i will prolly be working a lot of weekends so i will most likely make my trips to bloomington during the week which is going to be a blast bc i can go to class with him...

anyway, im gonna get going... i dont want to waste anymore time on this that i can spend with kyle....

ps.. eyetoy play two is a blast!

Just for the record... no one really cares about all the little girls on here that talk about nothing but materialistic things... or about their hair or NAILS... so do us all a fovor... stop posting about stupid poinless stuff.... Thanks :)

Sorry Kyle I HAD to show these to people to show them how CUTE you look with your new haircut! :) dont you love it!? i love the second pic... its very cute...

:)